I feel like I owe a little explanation for my bloggy silence since last week, which is quite likely to continue for at least another few days. I'm not shutting VM down, so no worries to those of you who read regularly. But I feel the need to back off at least for a little bit longer.
If you've read VM for any extended period of time, you'll know that I sometimes struggle with depression. It's something that I've accepted as a part of me, like an unwelcome houseguest that you just can't quite shoo away. Most of the time, and I mean like 90% of the time, it's not even a problem. I'm super self-aware, so I can almost always get myself out of those funks that occasionally pop up. Except when I can't. Like Friday, when it hit me like a train. I spent most of the weekend trying to pull myself out of it, but here it is on Tuesday and I'm still trying.
It's nothing for anyone to be concerned about by any means. It's just me, taking a step back to embrace my old "friend" so I can shove it away for another few months. That's how my depression and I work. It sneaks in, I let it, I deal with it, and then I move on.
And no, I'm not trying for any sympathy here. I appreciate it, but I don't need it. I just thought it'd be fair to let my bloggy friends know what's going on in my life. I like transparency. Also, I'm afraid that if I randomly stop posting for a week without an explanation you'll all decide to stop reading forever and that would make me really sad.
So for now, I guess I'll just say that I'll see you guys in a few days? And hopefully, in this case at least, absence will make your hearts grow fonder :)
Thanks for...idk, reading? Still?
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Emma! You know I know how you feel. I've read that a constant attachment to blogging and internety things can make you depressed. I read that most bloggers are actually depressed on some level. SO! Taking a break is just what you need. Get out of the house, talk a walk, get some sunshine and fresh air. Or! You can be like me when I get depressed...put on your favorite pajamas, eat a tub of cookie dough and be lazy for days. That usually makes me feel better :) Let me know if you need anything, lady!
ReplyDeleteoh my friend, I am FEELING you on this one! Not to say that I know what you feel like, but I hear you 100%. Not that I'm concerned (only in a bloggy friend way) but perhaps you could spend some time outside in the sun? A little Vitamind D synthesis never hurt anyone! Neither did a vitamin B supplement :)
ReplyDeleteTake all the time you need :) We will be here when you're ready to come back. I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteSorry, dear. Glad you're getting a handle on it.
ReplyDeleteAnd no need to explain or apologize for absences: we all have them. Sometimes I go missing because I get abducted by aliens. They like to study me 'cause I'm a two-fer: one person who can teach them about both sexes.
Thank you for this post. It is comforting for me to be reminded that depression can just jump you sometimes. I have nights where I realized that I only got off the couch when my children needed me, and otherwise I have watched a couple of seasons of "The Office" on Netflix non-stop. Take care and we will be here when you get back!
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